A Taste of the Other Shore

 Fearless Intimacy

I wanted to make this group more or less without words, but I see this is impossible because I have to pass certain things on to you through your minds. Hopefully they won’t stop there and will go where they’re supposed to go. Just say, “A-ha” with the mind, and then let it go. At the beginning of the last session I was working with the group energy, the communal energy, and not with individuals particularly. I was knitting the energy lines between you and there are certain characteristics about that. When I awaken these energy lines I’m not connecting lines between the persons here as individuals, but between some kind of original selves, souls if you like, something that stands apart from your individual existence in this life.

Say there is a person in the group you just had an argument with, or something negative is there between you and this person; when you go to this level, that would not be present, it would not interfere, you will simply say “yes” to the energy as it flows. You might wonder why you are attracted to this person when you have had some resistance or anger towards them, but on this level none of the things that have happened between you and that person are present. Nothing that has transpired between you and other people in this life has a place on this universal, eternal level.

When you move from that universal, or all inclusive level towards another person – as we were doing after I awoke the energy lines – then what goes on and what passes between you is quite different than it would be if you come from an ordinary personality level. You go into a deep connectedness and the intimate connection is pure. By pure, I mean that it would not be affected by the kind of things that right now, in your day-to-day life, interfere with your intimacy.

If you feel a tremendous affinity, resonance or harmony with somebody it’s very beautiful, but if you don’t feel these qualities, then it is very hard to move into intimacy. If you don’t feel attracted to somebody, it is very hard to be intimate with them. If you have judgements against somebody, you can’t have intimacy with them. If you have a strong sexual attraction to somebody, you can’t really have intimacy with them because the sexuality takes over. On the other side, if you have a fear or resistance towards sexuality, then you can’t have a deep intimacy because the fear will take over. Even if what is coming towards you is not sexual, you will close up because you will protect yourself against the perceived invasive sexuality. But if you come from the energy space, or you go beyond your usual reactions to find a place on the other side where there is just some kind of clear energy, then the whole quality of the interaction will be completely different.

In the way that I see things, every person here in this X-Run Seminar, as well as every other person connected with the Wild Goose Energy Field, is well known to everybody else. If I use “past lives” as a metaphor, I can say that everybody in this energy field, at some time in their series of lives, has been a lover, parent, child, sibling or close relation to everybody else. We all came from the same quarter of the universe, so there was intimacy from the very start.

To realise this, not in words but in the sense: “I feel so intimate with this person, so knowing, so at one, so close”, even the words reduce it. To get to that place means whatever takes place between you has a transcendental flavour, and because it’s transcendental, it’s tremendously healing on that which is not transcendental, which is ordinary existence.

It’s a peak exchange. A very natural, uninterfered with, peak exchange. But it’s very difficult to do this, even from where we began, which was after the knitting-out process. All the yeses and nos that one has come in and prevent the pure connecting link from playing between you and somebody else.

I wanted to check out if what I am saying now is true, and I found it was. I was aware of and connected with one of the groups of four people and I found this ‘beyond intimacy’ in one after the after, all at the same time. I stepped out of the group, and these people stayed in this tremendously powerful state to the end of the session. Following the first structure of connecting energy and letting this energy flow, they remained quite still for half an hour, just there together in complete Oneness; it was very beautiful to see. Slowly the will, motivations, self-searching and grasping disappeared. Then, in that relaxed place, miracles can happen because nothing is interfering with that possibility anymore. In that space, there was nothing going on other than the work of the cosmic movement.

Of course in that kind of situation, emotional, heart or sexual energies might move, but they’re just plays with waves of the ocean, and they don’t take over. You are not taken off down any lane, you stay city centre, so to speak. At the same time as energy might be running down the lanes, you are not being taken down the lanes by it.

Intimacy is still two, but then when intimacy becomes so close and undefended that nobody is trying to make it more than it is, then it evolves into Oneness.

I am sure you have all experienced this with your partner or with people very close to you: your intimacy dissolves into Oneness. But what I am stating now is that, from the position free of your life choices, when you can connect with people on this level, then you can have intimacy with anybody and everybody.

If you come from the normal level of personal and interpersonal activity, and then move from there into a love relationship, and it doesn’t work out, then in most cases the intimate connection is gone forever. But when you come from a universal level and move into such things, then even if they’re not ongoing they never completely disappear, because you fall back into the universal level where you are connected with everybody, always and forever. It is like a wave moving and then you return to the ocean, then another wave and another wave and you keep returning to the ocean.

If you are all living in that place of natural intimacy and openness to everybody, what harm could you ever really do to one another? It is not such an abstract “if”; this can be possible.

The first time I ever felt this kind of natural intimacy, I was on a train in Tokyo, Japan. I was in a railway compartment, going from one part of Tokyo to another. I was surrounded by Japanese people and it came to me that we were all intimately connected. There was no space between us that was real. It was just a flash and it didn’t last, but it did point to the fact that such a sense of union and connectedness is possible with any group of people.

This sort of thing can only happen if people aren’t dominated by their belief systems, attitudes, yeses, nos, likes, dislikes, and so on. On that level of existence it is extremely hard for this pure intimacy to happen, if not impossible.

Talk, X-Run Part II, 14th December 2006